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I have to be gentle because other precious broken hearts are involved and deeply hurting. I will not add to their distress. We all grieve differently. My dear aunt passed away on the 12th of May. My step dad passed on Friday the 13th . I am my mothers only child - her sibling and parents are gone. I am - for all my big talk, simply ill equipped to handle her situation. Hear my heart. If you love your kids, your spouse/partner or other family - then plan for your passing from this life because while your spirit is forever your body is finite. Even death is monetized. Get your house in order while you breathe, because if you don’t, the ones you love will be left to deal with what you have left undone. And losing you - that is more than enough for any heart to bear. All love to my extended family. I will do what I know to do for my mom. And MY house will be in order
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So many beautiful posts about Mother's Day. To borrow a phrase from my elder heir: "I have big feelings about it." I love my mom. I question her logic in bringing me into this world as she often was bent on taking me out of it, but I do love her as love is a choice and I have chosen to forgive and love. As for my own spawn - I love them too but I miss them deeply. They are grown and I am irrelevant. I used to tell my self - even when they were babies that my job was to get them to adult hood so they could go live their own lives. Success therefore is bittersweet. I miss the jokes, the chats, breakfast on Saturdays, the conversations consisting of song lyrics, movie quotes and inside jokes. I miss hearing about their plans for the future. I miss voluntary hugging. Most days I try not to think about it - because I chose to have them knowing one day they would fledge. But sometimes I get big feelings - and I'm struggling to diffuse them. Tomorrow will be better.
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