I will not regret

Those who do not know history are doomed to repeat it. This statement is inclusive of one's own personal history to the extent that if we don't learn from our past - the monster will circle around again and eat us. When my dad died, I never truly grieved. I surrendered to the tyranny of the urgent. To a 60 hour work week. To "obligations and promises" and even before that - I allowed everyone else to take care of Ron because he was so well taken care of. I let him go years before his passing because I thought it appropriate to do so. What a load of bovine excrement. I will not do this in my current situation. She is my mother. I am present for the duration . As long as we both draw breath on this orb - I will be there at her side taking care of her. We don't have to like it - or each other. To quote a dear friend, I will do what it "right, just and fair." I know I will eventually grieve - but I will not regret.